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bon nuit

i'm just after pulling an all-nighter and am feeling slightly delirious. abhinav and i started working at 7:30 and worked for 12 hours straight, fairly focused the whole time and with few breaks. the primary problem was that today, i mean yesterday, was way too busy between intramural soccer, a hangover, and easter festivities. i am turning over a new leaf, i say. now it's off to bed for an hour or so.

7:25 a.m. - Apr. 21, 2003

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easter greetings from palo alto

dear john, i wish you were here.

that is about how i feel right now. we broke up last october, i guess, which means we've been broken up nearly six months, so i guess one would think that i'd moved on. apparently that's not the case, however. john, meanwhile, has a new girlfriend while i'm pining away by myself in california.

tonight we had casino night at cromem and i dealt roulette all night. it was kind of fun. my friend nick stopped by and played for a while, but then he drunk-biked over to the physics party. dumb physics people. priscilla and i won $37.50, though. that's cool! i bought soccer boots and some nifty shorts today, and not they're free thanks to my winnings. yay for gambling!

we were supposed to take shots if we won, though, which was at the very end and was kind of dumb because now i'm feeling drunk and social and all there is to do is to go to bed. *sigh*

sid was there. being siddish.

tomorrow i play intramural soccer. and i have a frikking lot of work to get done.

happy easter folks.

12:05 a.m. - Apr. 20, 2003

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casual dating

i went dancing again last night, which was fun but not as fun as last time. we learned to swing and this seemed harder to me - the instantaneous spin was challenging to say the least. also, there were more girls than guys, which sucked. i hate competing for a partner. however, i am learning a life skill. i keep repeating this to myself.

then i came home and my next-door neighbor broke my favorite cup (accidentally). we had this "discussion" about casual dating - should one do it? i was the only advocate. everyone else thought you should only date someone if you thought you wanted to marry them. and it got kind of personal. people were making statements that basically implied "you must be a bad person if you (selfishly) date someone you're not interested in marrying." my feathers are still ruffled. not that i'm even all that interested in casual dating anymore. i am, however, glad that i dated around when i was younger. a lot of my friends didn't date much (though some certainly did) but somehow it's different from the people here. they didn't date much because they didn't feel like it, but i didn't look down on them, and i don't feel they looked down on me for choosing to date. that isn't really the situation here with certain people.

grrr. i need to desteam.

8:48 a.m. - Apr. 18, 2003

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paula radcliffe

Paula Radcliffe is absolutely my hero! In case you missed the news, she just set a new marathon world record in 2:15:25. That means she ran 26.2 miles at 5:10 per mile pace. The vast majority of people, men and women, cannot even run one mile at this pace! In high school, I trained 6 days a week for 4 years and was only able to run a mile in 5:52. I can't even fathom how fast Paula went. Her fastest mile was around 4:4x - and she ran the last 400m in about 62 seconds! Incredible.

In other news, I can hardly walk today after running the dish loop yesterday - a 5 mile, very hilly run. I was also up 'til 4:20 last night finishing two homeworks due today, and after cooking and eating at Breakers, I have to head to flute choir, and I just don't want to. I am so, so tired - I just want to sleep for a long time. It's going to be a crazy week. I'm supposed to get started on research. Also, I'm going to an NBA game Wednesday. Thursday is dance class. I'm supposed to exercise with Susan tomorrow. I'm sure there's a few other things I'm forgetting too.

6:41 p.m. - Apr. 14, 2003

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update

i decided to do a profile page, which is the previous entry. before that is the most recent real entry.

10:57 p.m. - Apr. 12, 2003